procrastination

so, what do you do when you don't know what to do? when the only feeling you feel is nothing. no motivation, no direction, just lost and drifting. I tell you what you do. you become someone else for a while, so you can then re locate yourself. I decided to be a 60's chick, Mia Wallace, take no BS.


when you procrastinate about procrastination do you become mainstream? or are you even further away from society? creating your own world.  when you don't even know what you are living for.


all this drifting is exhausting. when will it stop?


how will I know?
what will it take?


!!!!!

Urgency of love

Love? Lust? Desire? 

We all want to know what it is. We ask -  

"What is this?" 

"What are we?"

Is it love? Is it attraction?

How do we distinguish? 

We all want it. 

Why do we rush it?

What is so urgent about love?

What happens when it is gone?

How long is enough?

Will it eventually go?

Can we love forever?

If yes, then can we desire forever?

Passion. Passionless. 

     Equals = no love?

Can we love without desire and attraction? Yes. But it goes hand in hand. Without desire, passion and lust isn't it just unconditional? Isn't it just caring? Like you care for an aunt or brother?

What is love? The consistency ever so thick. 

lover of mind

Their minds and bodies will succumb to the ultimate pastime. She knows he will be a tender lover, true and carefree yet dominant and protecting. Their minds are already there even though their bodies still delay. He has a library of books in his house – a man with a library like his couldn’t possibly do her any harm. It has been just under a month now, less than 4 whole solid days together but she knows him. She wants to be in the proximity of his penis, an alien penis she has thought about so often yet not pictured once. She is excited at the thought of him being like a father to her during intimacy. She has been yearning for a parental figure. He has so often thought of her and her inexperience. So young but as if she has lived a previous life. She has the frivolity and innocence he so longs for. He wants to corrupt her mind and keep it for himself. She can’t stop her soul responding to his voice, thus he cannot resist a woman who‘s soul responds in this way. She plans every moment leading up to the liaison. She begins unbuttoning her shirt in front of the bare mirror, with her lover on her ever ready mind.