Urgency of love

Love? Lust? Desire? 

We all want to know what it is. We ask -  

"What is this?" 

"What are we?"

Is it love? Is it attraction?

How do we distinguish? 

We all want it. 

Why do we rush it?

What is so urgent about love?

What happens when it is gone?

How long is enough?

Will it eventually go?

Can we love forever?

If yes, then can we desire forever?

Passion. Passionless. 

     Equals = no love?

Can we love without desire and attraction? Yes. But it goes hand in hand. Without desire, passion and lust isn't it just unconditional? Isn't it just caring? Like you care for an aunt or brother?

What is love? The consistency ever so thick. 

shot my baby with a bang

 

something that was less than a week ago feels like months, my mind has lapsed. i seem to have forgotten you, but somehow think of you everyday. i dont know how long this torture will persist. love knows no bounds and it certainly didnt with us, for i cant live with you nor without.

frosted glass

The taste of your soul still alive in my mouth.  

Strands of stray hairs on a dirty pillow case.

Open windows letting the cold air scorch cold stone colder. Stale memories lit only by your half eaten love.

Winter has come early.

the telephone episode

In the dead of a cool night

I pick up the telephone

I dial your number

I know it off by heart, although the end numbers give me a hard time, coincidently like the end of our liaison

The voice I’m so familiar with lolls around in my head

It’s been 5 months, 26 days, 8 hours, 31 minutes, 6, 5 seconds,

It’s still as clear, as disfigured as that scar on my lower back

2 rings have gone by

Rhythmically erratic, my heart is thrashing like a fist on a goblet drum

8 rings pass

I retreat

I was yet a memory to him

The hurt of separation still lingers with me.  

soul love, kindred spirits

Longing for our non- physical characters to collide, our spirits are indestructible; we are kindred spirits – one in the same. Deprived of emotion, lacking in hate, brimming with love, respect and understanding. Looking for familiarity, soul love.  

That freckle on your upper lip - a poem by me.

Sweet love, young love, not merely as young as we
thought,
a kind of love that haunts us both,
at night,
at dawn.

We can get through the day,

but not alone,
for our memories keep each other still,
that slow dance we shared, that letter we wrote
and both kept safe.

I try and refute it – I am at the point

of despair
things left unsaid, things better not said,
so reckless with your ways.

That stained sheet, that same dinner we shared,

that I eat over and over again, without you,
those dates on the calendar that are thus
insensitive to my heart.

Unspoken requited love, malicious and cruel –
audacious, long- suffering moody,
this love is sweetly sour; I don’t know if I prefer it?
i do know that when my mind is at its most erratic,
the thought of you sobers it sane.

Pisces

One of the loves of my life is astrology. When I meet a person I like to know their sign so I can analyse them, get to understand them on a level they may not even understand themselves on. I always refer back to my little zodiac type book, when I’m watching an actor on screen, contestants in reality shows and when I observe passers-by. I was recently reading my book; reading my sign (Pisces) and every time I read it I get surprised at how much I am alike to it! So I thought I would do a page on each sign to go on my blog, just to share my love and so you all can get a better understanding of me.

 

PISCES – (19^th Feb – 20^th March)

12^th sign of the zodiac is concerned with:

·        Secrets, fulfilment of life, eternity

·        Sensitivity, intuition, humour, satire

·        Unusual talent, memory, wisdom, versatility

·        Art, drama, poetry, prose, dance

·        Illusions, magic, film, fantasy, make believe

·        Dreams, the psychic, precognition, sixth sense

·        Compassion, sympathy, love, altruism

 

Mutable means changeable and water

can change its form in many ways: rain, hail, snow, mist, frost, clouds

rainbows, warm pools and puddles; thus Pisceans feelings can

change a dozen times a day.

 

Characteristics

Positive: loving, caring, trusting, hospitable and will help all in distress, shy, helpful, romantic, creative, mystical, gentle and kind, compassionate, understanding of others.

Negative: self-pitying, gullible, temperamental, dependant, escapist, sensationalist, depressive, can lose touch with reality, too emotionally involved with the problems of others, tends to blame self for everything.

More than any other sign, Pisces has many talents which may be used to develop their character. Many work hard to improve the lot of humanity. Others bring their talents to film and entertainment, enlivening the lives of thousands.

Pisces needs to turn his/her private,

Mystical dream world of love

& compassion into a reality.

 

The Pisces female –

·        Does not try to dominate her partner in any way

·        Often appears vague and dreamy

·        Is subtle and, while appearing to be helpless or incapable, gets things organised and manages the finances extremely well

·        Protects her emotional vulnerability with humour or a sophisticated exterior

·        Needs to belong to someone

·        Has a warm, sympathetic heart

 

 

Typical behaviour and abilities

When at a home, a Pisces man or woman:

·         Will often enter a fantasy world

·         Will feel safe to freely explore his or her imagination

·         Will probably have no fixed routine

·         Is likely to be untidy, although he or she may have a sudden urge to tidy everything to avoid confusion

·         Will need a space for personal privacy

·         Should keep a large, clear clock

·         Will make the home itself into a wonderful world of art, music, design and good food and wine

 

Typical occupations

Film, theatre, TV, radio, ballet, music and art will attract Pisces, who is often a good actor. A job that allows travel will be attractive. Helping people solve their problems, charitable and church are also attractive to Pisces.

Pisces and love –

Behaviour when in love:

·        is romantic, eager to please, adapts to the demands of the relationship

·        appears to be helpless, delicate & vulnerable, but being loved enables a Pisces to cope well with a range of difficulties, problems & tragedies.

·        Is emotionally involved, to the point of not recognising when he or she is being deceived or treated badly.

Expectations:

·        To have his or her dreams valued, and to be protected from harsh criticism

·        To be cared for romantically, to have children, to be frequently reassured they are loved

·        All birthdays and anniversaries to be remembered

The end of an affair

Some Pisces tend to drift into another relationship almost without noticing, yet they are surprised when they are accused of unfaithfulness. The self-doubt which haunts many Pisces can only be dispelled by repeated reassurance that they are loveable. Consequently Pisces may sometimes just leave a relationship with no clear reasons and with no regrets. It is not that the Pisces does not love the abandoned partner anymore. On the contrary, Pisces will often show much sympathetic understanding and will try to retain a friendly relationship with the one he/she has left.

The worse possible event for a Pisces is to be rejected by the one who loved them. A partner who wants to end a relationship with a typical Pisces will find this a very difficult thing to do. Pisces will cling convinced that if they can reform in some way, everything will be alright again. The ex-partner of a Pisces may have to go to extremes to extricate him or herself from the emotional mess that a hurt Pisces can produce.

 

When a typical Pisces makes love

It is an act of romance rather than

Of carnal pleasure. Typical Pisces

Is less interested in sexual activity than

In the expressions of love that come before

And afterwards.

To many men, Pisces is the perfectly feminine woman. She may appear to be a helpless, fluffy person but, once married, she will feel secure and her reserve of talents and abilities will pour out in every direction.

 

Pisces are friendly, humorous and caring friends, even if there are long periods of time between meetings. Pisces will always think up something interesting to do and will enjoy any kind of artistic ventures.

Pisces likes:

·        Film, theatre, travelling, entertainers, witches, elves, monsters, gypsies,mystic settings, candles,inscence, background music

·        Romantic places, sunsets, mountain vistas, waterfalls, organic foods, poetry, privacy, colourful food

·        New books, diamonds, being loved, freedom to drift along from time to time, presents wrapped in magical paper, people who need their understanding

Dislikes:

·        Bright, noisy, crowded places, stiff clothing, authorities, people knowing too much about him/her

·        Being told to get a grip on things

·        Dirty, ugly objects

FAMOUS PISCEANS

Joanne Woodward

Elizabeth Taylor

Albert Einstein

Sidney Poitier

Liza Minnelli

Meher baba

Rudolf Nureyev

(source - Collins gem - Zodiac types)

Thanks to Marilyn

Her platinum blonde hair,

Thanks to Max Faktor,

Her new nose + chin,

Thanks to Johnny Hyde,

Her new outlook on life,

Thanks to Joe DiMaggio. 

Her immaculate body + curves,

Thanks to her love of food,

Her glorious gowns,

Thanks to Jean Louis, Will Travilla,

Her beautiful face,

Thanks to Gladys Baker. 

Her acting, singing, dancing skills,

Thanks to Strasburg, Hal Schaefer,

Her endless beauty,

Thanks to Norma Jeane, Aunt Ana. 

Thanks for your personality,

Although your beauty is out of this world,

Your personality stands the test of time. 

Thanks for your innocence,

Thanks for the comfort you bring,

Thanks for the good you see in everyone around you,

Thanks for your endless love,

Thanks for your understanding,

Your patience and your self-respect. 

You never stopped trying, you never gave up,

For you Marilyn made who you are and kept it true.

 

Thank you Marilyn.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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